Theres no point. I cant even see you because you live in New York…whats the point of feeling emotions for someone who I can’t even see in person when there are people around me who want me :/ it’s just that I don’t like them like that but there are people who I want and should try building a better relationship with…and even though you encourage me to date other people but to still talk to you, I don’t want to do that! I don’t want to be attached to you. At all.

And, not to mention, you irritate me so much sometimes….ugh, I’m just going to slowly and subtley distance myself. Except for today, or whenever you fucking choose to reply, when I either tell you to fuck off or to leave me alone.

We made up. I don’t know why I get myself so worked up when I know all I have to do is talk to him. I always give people this advice but I’m too fucking stubborn to take the advice myself….He wanted to see if I cared about him. He wanted me to contact him first because whenever we fight, he always comes to me first and this is totally true. I’m just sooo stubborn.

I guess this is just all a part of the learning process! But anyways, yay!

heartstilltobreak:

Drugs are for people who are weak of personality. That’s my opinion. They don’t help. They won’t make you better. You’ll end up further away from where you want to be. I am understanding to coping methods but in reality, taking your mind off your problems won’t make them go away. 

Losing someone who is special to me seems like the scariest thing in the world. When I think about losing someone special, or not talking to them anymore, I wonder how people handle breakups. Especially when they’re with people who they talk to everyday. Or even worse, when they’re with a best friend.

Those of you who have endured breakups, but have recovered, I definitely give you props. I haven’t experienced one yet. But even thinking about losing someone like that, is an absolutely terrible thought.

I guess we never really mattered to you.

it sucks when you miss someone and they dont care but they never did. it sucks even more when you miss someone and you know that they used to miss you just as much, but dont anymore.